17 April 2004

I am tired. I've worked a lot lately, but anyone who knows what I do will be quick to point out that a regular six-hour workday that finds me riding Walt Disney World attractions in the name of education is not the most taxing role to be fulfilled. In spite of the short hours, I work hard during my programs. And please, think about this: in 3 short hours, I need to get to know a group of kids (anywhere from 2nd to 12th grade), earn their respect, navigate them through Walt Disney World, (which, up until today was extraordinarily busy), convince them to step outside of their comfort zones and work cooperatively, and deliver scientific, accurate historical, technical, and performance-related content. After those three hours, my work load drops precipitously, but I put my heart and soul into watching these kids grow, which is the most rewarding thing I get to see on a daily basis.

At the same time, however, I need to be at work at either 6:45am or 7:30am, which makes the very idea of nighttime activities laughable. Naps are of no use to me because I need a lot of uninterrupted sleep. I don't get that, which makes me tired.

I'm tired of other things, as well. Frustration with myself is a regular state in which I find myself. I don't do much socially, which is killing me. Slowly. It's not like I don't WANT to be social, it's just that it's hard for me, and I get to use my work schedule/chronic fatigue as an excuse. Someone, please kick my ass.